I mark my place in sound
here is where i am
raspily breathing through my new smoked lungs
slowly clanging bell of
tony & sons knife sharpening truck
stops to hone a cleaver
some lawnmower blades
ssshk ssshhhhk
someone, a womans voice
wracked
screaming “freeeed! Freeeeeed!”
somewhere on the train tracks.
Last night you were crying on the porch
“this city is colder”
“noone meets my eyes anymore, things have changed”
i hugged your shaking shoulders, my old friend
cried with you, like i always do
things always change here.
That's the nature
the shrugging shoulder of the mountain
gives us air
and luft
softly blows out old plans and
smooths our foreheads
I'm thinking now of old sounds.
frying of breaded meat at the family castle on Rachel.
The whine of baby-killers clearing snow from the sidewalk
voices forming strategy on our centre-sud porch
idealism breaking in the sun like crystalline dreams
after quebec
after the cellos and low voices on answering machines
and the wind blows through
blowing with it our intentions to quit smoking
to get away now and then
to find better work
i've been low to the ground, my old friend
our laughter together is all i've eaten for days
but i've learned to live on that
and sucking on the splinters of those dreams
this is my city after all
that at least
never changes.